Hello, I'm wondering if I am aromantic, or some level of it. Throughout my whole life I never really thought about romance. It never really interested me, I never sat and thought about weddings or dates or anything. I did have "crushes" but looking back I never had romantic thoughts of them. It was more so like I thought they were attractive and they were popular and made me nervous, more like an infatuation than anything, even past people I talked to, I would get obsessed but then once it was over I quickly got over it and realized I didn't like them just the idea of them. However I did end up in a relationship back in August. And I really did genuinely like this person. We were romantic and I did enjoy it. However we broke up. My ex believes he is aromantic and asexual. And at first I was very hurt. However now I realize I don't care about the fact we broke up and the fact we're not dating. I don't think of him romantically or even sexually anymore. I really just think of him as a friend now. I realized what upset me and what does upset me is how distant he is (for various reasons, his own mental and personal life stuff, and things have been heavy because of my own mental issues). It's like I don't care we're not dating, I don't care if we ever kissed or didn't kiss again. I just want to be close with him again. I just want to be his favorite person again as he is mine. And I also want to spend my life with him. and I don't care what that looks like. If me and him were just friends and just laughed and made art and played video games together. I'd be so happy with that, or if he ever wanted to get back together and kiss me again I'd be happy with that. Like to me, what we do, or what label we have doesn't matter, as long as we can spend time together. However I will say with anyone and everyone else the idea of romance and kissing is straight up repulsive. I can't think of anyone romantically at all. And I still don't really think of him romantically but I'd still be happy to do romantic stuff with him if he wanted. Idk. If I never kissed or got in a relationship with anyone again. Or did any romantic stuff I wouldn't care. All I know is I want to spend my life with him and I don't care what that looks like as long as it's him (and as long as we're both happy of course) (I will admit if he like hypothetically ended up with someone it would upset me, would make me feel like I wasn't worth it, but also I'd be upset because then I couldn't spend my life with him, even as friends yk?). And so I just like ? What does this mean ? It all has me very confused, and I was hoping people that are on the aromantic spectrum could help me understand if I am on the aromantic spectrum and if I am, where am I ?