I started it today. I had a mental break due to factors out of my control and spoke up because the last six months I felt my mental health declining and was getting darker and darker. I’m upset because it’s just standard group therapy the people are nice and the group on first impression is very welcoming.

However I have ptsd from a combat related event. I’m a drone boy I didn’t jab my knife into a neck or engage in direct combat no Combat badge for me nothing that close but still the event shifted things in me. It made me well that was my first mental break. I wanted to be in a group of others who I could speak openly and plainly with about the affects of these events. I don’t feel I’ll get that sense of closure that I’ve been searching for.

Beyond that sense of not getting the care I think I need, my session is in the middle of the day and I’m half tempted to ask my platoon sgt to just let me not show for the next 4 weeks and do accountability check ins. The first session today was so exhausting I’m extremely anxious around new groups and groups in general. I know my job is soldiering I am by all means required to be at PT, however right now I’m just trying to focus on getting my mind back straight so I don’t end up on a MEB 6months before my ETS.

What would you ask for in my situation?