So I’ve been a CPL for about a year and with no prospect of hitting 5 I’ve just sorta settled into getting out in a year. Due to a lack of Sgts and up for about 6-7 months of my time as a CPL I was a Squad leader, I ran my squad good I did the best I could with what I knew how to do and when I didn’t know I’d ask questions. Above all I’d fight for my soldiers if I felt leadership above me was being unfair or stupid. I’d accept if I was wrong and when I was wrong I’d even ask for explanations so I could fix my error.

Recently my company did a platoon meshing, so that we could have more cohesion or something of the sort, anyway I found myself removed from squad leader which was totally okay I was more than happy to hand it over to someone I thought I could trust. I was out in a team leader slot which is expected being a CPL however I came back from CQ and found I had been fired and moved to a whole new squad under someone who is my junior (although I’m fine he’s a good leader and understanding). So I did what any other soldier or NCO would I asked why, and I was stonewalled and told my platoon sgt would talk to me on Monday. So given that I have anxiety (freshly diagnosed lol fuck) I texted my platoon sgt instead and got the same answer. It’s now Tuesday and my platoon sgt is out with COVID. Monday I showed up to pt at 0554 instead of 0550 because you know it’s hard to sleep when you spend the whole weekend fixated on what you did wrong or something that you said.

Anyway I got a text yesterday saying something along the lines of “As an NCO you should be able to plan ahead and around traffic near your home to make it to PT on time if this happens again we’ll be recommending you for an article 15 for showing patterns of tardiness” which I own that despite my frustration yes I agree I should do better but I’m bewildered by my new platoon. I’ve been with this unit for 3-4 years being fenced in from COVID as well as a additional fence for Retention. I’ve worked with every single one of the soldiers and leaders and I feel so shocked that they’re stone walking me like this and doing this to me. I get that I’m getting out in a year but I have issues I know I’m not fit to continue my service and I want to leave on good terms. However all I wanna do is fire back with things like why should I act as an NCO when I’m not given the same respect that others of my rank are given. I bite my tongue but the fact that this has happened and that no one has even asked if I’m okay which ha shocker I’m not is astounding.

The last thing I was holding onto that made me actively give a fuck about this unit was leading and helping soldiers develop themselves I wanted to do that in my last year to give them as many warnings as I can of what to do and not to do on the way out. I guess now I’m just gonna sit and wait out the days left in this contract because I have not trust and now will left to deal with this unit any further.