PFC who's been stuck in holdover status for 7 months (my AIT was supposed to last 4 months) Im not a disciplinary hold ive only been here because nobody can figure out whats wrong with my EFMP stuff. I needed a screening for my wife to go to Hawaii. Im unable to take leave and the time i get to spend with my wife is extremely limited due to financial issues and being separated by multiple states. She just told me a few days ago that she's been thinking about a divorce for a bit and now she says its what she wants. i can't convince her otherwise and now i have to go through all of that plus i've been here this whole time for her and it was all for nothing. Years of my life and thousands of dollars down the drain because she couldn't handle separation or the thought of leaving her friends and job to go to hawaii. Ive put a lot into this relationship and we both knew separation moving were inevitable. I disassociate almost every day and on the days i do feel things i just think about everything that could've been done and what's been lost. i know i should be at least a little happy that she weeded herself out of my life if she couldn't handle a military life but it still hurts more than id like to admit. talking to people about it doesn't seem to help much and as time goes by i just hurt more. I guess this is just a way to vent im not really asking for anything.

Just a frozen lemonade please