I've (M30) been openly pan for a while bit have very limited experience with men, honestly the closest I've come is being with a few pre op trans women but that's not the point. A few months ago I finally took a leap and bought myself a dildo, spent hours finding the perfect one incredibly horny the entire time, just throbbing against my pants. I started by sucking it and stroking it while masturbating but the other night finally decided to get on and ride it. Enjoyed it but was a little uncomfortable after, couldn't wait for more though. Then came last night... I was trembling with anticipation as i got on once more, getting it more than halfway in (8 inch tentacle dildo). I rode and teased myself, stroking my cock as it flopped and leaked all over, spent nearly two hours loving myself wishing I could be getting pegged or better yet creampied by a kinkier kind of dildo. Had to take a break due to my legs being rubber, I stroked myself til the biggest load I've ever seen exploded out of me. My face and chest were covered. I've never felt like such a slut. Can't wait to make myself cum from the toy alone next time, got so close to a hands free orgasm. Have to wait for more lube but am so excited to make a huge mess!