I feel the most alone I have ever felt in my life. I truly feel like I have no one to count on and I’m not capable of getting through the incoming storm of shit that is coming my way. I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve such abandonment. I have always worked hard at being giving and caring towards others. Somehow negative energy has surrounded me and everyone is treating me as if I did something horrible to them.

I honestly don’t know what I’ve done and in each situation I’ve replayed my experience with the person to see where I could have even gone wrong. Every word I write feels like I’m defending myself for something I know isn’t real and I shouldn’t even be concerned with.

I just want a little bit of happiness or good luck to find me from time to time. I need a single person to just be my true friend, support me and have my back.