I don't wanna ramble on too much; just wanna share. As the title says, I'm 40 days sober. This is my 3rd try, but until this time around, I never got a sponsor or tried to work the steps. I go to meetings regularly, or do them online when I'm unable to make it in person. Last night was the first time I went with my sponsor, who happens to be a good friend I used to work with. He's almost 2 years sober in less than a month!

He picked me up early so we could just have time to talk before the meeting, we stayed late after the meeting to talk some more. He's assigned me a massive amount of homework for the steps (feel free to ask if you want a link to it) and it's really been working for me. Between that and the big book, I've come a long way.

I had a moment earlier where I thought about having a drink. No urge or desire, just a thought. I literally started to gag and almost threw up. My body instantly rejected what my mind thought about. It's wild to me how the mind can have such an effect on the body like that, but I'm ok with it.

I went back to my questions, and they're extremely difficult to answer. There's a whole hell of a lot of em too. 69 questions to answer just in step 1! This method is the only one I've ever tried that seems to really give me hope that I'll never need to drink again as long as I live.

I've been sober longer than this before, but never felt so sure I could maintain it. If anyone out there today is struggling, feel free to message me. I'm always here to talk to anyone attempting to recover. Remember folks, it's one day at a time.