I want to share here my first real step in my battle against my own drinking problems. It use to be when I went out, I couldn’t stop myself from getting absolutely shit faced. The moment I entered the club I was hitting the bar and about six shots in before seven. It usually ended with me pissing someone off in the process by acting like an idiot and being an ass to people.

Well last night I went out with some friends, it was my first time going out for a long time and my first time not drinking. I was nervous, and dead sure I was going to crack under pressure. Even my parents thought I’d not last the night and they’re my biggest supporters.

But somehow I did it. I mean I had a lot of anxiety, relating to other issues I won’t discuss here, but in realising that going to a bar or a pub is the same with or without an alcoholic drink in hand -sweaty, noisy, and full of people who are way to attractive to approach without feeling intimidated.

I know this is just the first time and it’s only been fifteen days and I know this doesn’t apply for everyone. But I had some faith in myself and in my friends to not judge me for my choices (I didn’t tell them I’m an alcoholic, I said it was for ‘health reasons’ which is technically true).

I’d like to hope that that’s always the case but you never know - maybe I’ll crack down the line. But that first success, it’s really made me feel optimistic about the future. I think getting that first win, it really sets up the dominos you know?

Anyone have a nice Sunday everyone and keep strong - one day, one hour, one minute at a time.