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So hey everyone, I just joined this sub and it's nice to meet all of you! Two days ago marks my one month sobriety anniversary!
I'm a 26 (almost 27) yo alcoholic who has been addicted for about 10 years. I descended into it because of loneliness, past trauma, and social ostracization.
I have read up extensively on what to expect after quitting, but wanted to understand some specific things that happened to me recently.
First of all, I used to drink primarily at night and for the past month after the shakes and all wore off, that was when I was grumpy and craving and depressed the most. But last night, my brain almost immediately flipped on like a light. It was as if I was using only half of it for years. I wondered how many others noticed some gradual improvements in mood and mental functioning but then had a huge leap forward all of the sudden (and if that lasts or swings back and forth?)
Secondly, after that switch lit up, I was shocked by how little the things my mind used to obsess over that caused me to drink bothered me. Right now I'm questioning how much these things actually were that burdensome and painful to me the past 10 years. Because it feels almost like it was a way for my brain to compel me to drink. By amplifying the negative emotions and loneliness (my main triggers. I became addicted as a teen when I started going to bars underage cause nobody would invite me to parties, etc and it became a daily habit then a need)
And third, given the ages when I started and when I stopped, how likely is it that the damage to my body will be repaired with continued abstinence?
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