But I'm an alcoholic. I went on a binge yesterda. I started as soon as the liquor store by my house opened up, then bought more booze on my way to work, and then went to four different bars after work.

I didn't admit it outloud until my most recent therapy session and it was brought to my attention by a friend after they found me passed out in a park. It's impacted our friendship. I tried developing a healthy relationship with drinking but that didn't work.

I feel very much alone in all of this. I've pushed friends away because of my drinking and being passed out, and smelling like booze. It's impacted my ability to sleep and my will to do anything but drink.

I want to stop, but I'm worried about what will happen if I quit cold turkey.