I didn’t even think I had that much to drink, compared to my normal use. I was sitting in my sons room as he went to sleep, I went to stand up and I fell over. I tried to get up again and I fell over again, knocking over his stand up fan. This brought everyone in the house in to see what made all that noise.

I’m currently living with my ex wife and I had to admit to her I had a problem. I was already so scared she would find out about my drinking, I was afraid she would use it against me in custody fights, but she’s been amazingly supportive. Even after I drunkenly admitted I wanted to have sex with her. That is something I really regret.

I don’t remember going to bed but I woke up at 3am and couldn’t get back to sleep. I finally didn’t after a few hours and slept in. I missed an appointment with my doctor (who knows about my drinking) so I rescheduled for tomorrow. I’ve been looking into treatment options and will ask tomorrow for her to refer me. I’m not sure if I should do inpatient or outpatient treatment. But I need to stop.