I feel physically ill. A few weeks ago my friend not only spent an hour trying to convince me that I should do MDMA, sort out my childhood trauma and then go sober again. Not only that but he's emotionally and verbally abusive. We've been friends for twenty years but he seems to think it's okay to yell at me, call me names (when he's upset with me), berate me... We've had a lot of fun times and he can be a fun guy but once a year he says he needs a "break" from me, usually after he goes on a tirade where he swears at me or calls me names. We met in art school twenty years ago so I've held on, but I'm really reaching a point where I feel like he's an incredibly harmful and toxic person. I felt literally sick to my stomach all day thinking about this