I wish I never took up drinking. I stopped smoking cigarettes. I hate aa. I hate church. I tried rehab like 6 times. I stopped drinking hard liquor I stick to beer. It ruined a lot of relationships. I don't want to hear preaching. What do u guys do to cope with alcoholism. I tried pills and restraining. I'm a vet so I still have trauma. Like I'll be ok going to work being OK. Then I lose my shit not on purpose. I'm back in Afghanistan. I'm smoking a cigarette while the taliban try to mortar us. Mmm that cigarette smells good. Taste nasty. I don't want to talk about my what I saw more like my drinking. I stopped hard liquor maybe I can stop drinking beer