I was engaged and my ex GF broke things off.. Sent me into a depression.. I had a bad drinking problem.. It escalated while we were together for over 5 years.. When she decided to end it, it was my birthday.. We were talking, well she was talking, mostly sobbing and I was sitting there watching her and thinking.. I did this. I caused this beautiful woman that I love to emotionally disintegrate. But as she spoke I had a white light moment.. Like I went into a trance like state, I could hear her but I felt this wave of energy wash over me.. I told her I was done drinking.. She looked at me like I was crazy cause I said that before... too many times.. But this energy was present.. I said that guy, ( me ) I told her I was gonna kill that guy.. She ended up leaving that night and I just was in this energy wave... and I had this knowing.. not a hope, not a desire.. a knowing.. I KNEW.. So I went to work. I got into AA ( a spiritual program who knew) and found a therapist. I lost her but I got sober and from that day I never drank again.. Today is that day.. my birthday and it marks 6 years since I last drank.. I still see the therapist, I chair meeting in AA, I understand what change means.. Thank GOD for AA.... I am free and amazing!!!