I celebrated 2 months sober last Friday and I’ve been hesitant to hang out with my “normie” friends outside of our typical recreational soccer leagues. Our usual routine would be to play and then go drinking at a local pub nearby.

Tonight I went to a Halloween party one of my friends was hosting and I felt normal! She had NA beer, which I had never even had before, and I felt included in the atmosphere. Drinking them didn’t give me the urge to drink the real thing either, which I know a lot of people struggle with in the program. No one batted an eye at the fact I wasn’t drinking any seltzers or grabbing beers from the “Alcohol” fridge. Overall, my friends were supportive the whole time!

I am noticing that my cigarette/nicotine/vaping use is starting to go up and I’m not sure if it’s because I’m having a sense of boredom or if it’s really doing anything to me psychologically. This is obviously another beast I need to concur, but think I need to continue conquering the alcohol part and the nicotine usage will follow suit with time.