This is gonna sound weird but fuck it. Im just looking to hang with someone and get out of my isolated ways , I’ve been insanely depressed and In such a dark state of mind I been considering just ending it. It’s affected my life to a point where my conversation skills are insanely poor and probably concerning to others. Now to be clear -I acknowledge nobody can make you happy but yourself , I don’t expect anyone to do that for me but just being there and spending time means a shit ton to me. I’m alone all the time, and I just feel I hold no value in terms of contributing to anything- I’m just , “here” and it’s a weird feeling to explain. I don’t want to just be here, I’d love to learn news things and make memories with others. I’ve felt insanely disposable lately and it’d be nice to find someone that finds value in you and your time.

Don’t always gotta fuck we can literally just take a walk and grab food or something. Not romantically (as I’m not in the best state of mind for that clearly) but if it’s chill I’d love to make a friend and actually do stuff with them. I wouldn’t even mind like a mentor type situation- push me out my comfort zone teach me something new . Shit if you’re a non smoker help me quit smoking lol I’m open to all of that , I’m aware it comes off as ‘corny. ‘

I smoke a lot , drink a lot, I’ve kinda lost my way with life lately but when it’s good I love to hike, ride my bike and explore , sometimes I’ll ride /walk around get lost and figure it out but that’s the fun, loveeee to cook, do art, crafts, big reader, and I crochet a bunch too. I really want to do paint and sip, or go camping and try other stuff.

I’m down to fuck of course but literally on my period , i personally don’t mind running a red light and kinda love it , but i can understand not everyone’s into that either and respect that. Sex is fun I love to cum just like anyone else but it’s been kinda hard getting into it lately, lots of people don’t reciprocate, or they’re just really shitty , mean people , so it just takes longer to get comfortable. Love giving head, making out , big on snuggles (like I’ll take snuggles over food at this point) Down for anal, toys, videos -whatever . Down to explore other options too. I’ve always wanted to try edging or like getting forced to cum , think that’s hot.

As for looks I’m not hot so if it’s what’s your looking for I’m def not it . I’m a fair average (ish) women with a big ol apple head ,I’m 5’11 , long dark hair and shit brown eyes with bags under em- far from petite but not thick . I’ve got jiggles , but they are soft jiggles. I’ve got nice legs but got tummy and cellulite (I know like, ew) and I kinda dress like a homeless dyke. Not a super hot description but not like trying to sugar coat either.

I do wear matching socks tho , so , I’m not complete trainwreck.

Thanks for reading my rant of an ad.