I dont even know why. Napansin nya kanina bat daw ako lumungkot bigla. Sabi ko na lang na may iniisip lang and binago ko topic.

For context, we've been fwb for almost 5 months. Been going out din for dates (purely sfw) and fucking every other week. We've travelled na din together, as in 2 lang kami somewhere in Visayas.

I must say na very compatible kami. Match na match ang humor namin, intellectual capacity, and lalong-lalo na sa bed.

Pag magmimeet kami for sex, a feeling is there that we both don't want to show, bc who knows it might ruin the moment (for me, or for him). I fulfill his fantasies, and he fulfills mine. I've done lots of things in bed that i didn't do with my ex for xx years.

Pag lumalabas kami, nag-e hhww kami. And before we say goodbye to each other, we hug and we kiss.

We text every single day. Walamg palya. We can talk anything under the sun and we will never get tired of it.

Kanina, we meet to eat and witness a seasonal attraction somewhere in Makati. Then we go home. Ganto kami. If we both agreed na date lang, date lang. We separate the sfw and nsfw meet-ups.

Ewan ko. Yung sadness ko hanggang ngayon feel ko pa din to the point na I want to cry. Maybe bc i dont wanna lose this guy who's been my constant? Na i dont wanna settle on us just being fwb? Na maybe, i want more than that?

Hays.