i'm trying my best to recall the details but all i can think of is how great it felt giving and receiving oral sex.

as a late bloomer, i’d spent years watching porn but would skip parts that seemed intimidating. fellatio and cunnilingus were videos i shied away from (couldn't even say the word blowjob before lol).

it was strange to me then, but my curiosity overcame hesitations, and what seemed unsettling started to feel... more inviting.

i wonder what it feels like to give and receive oral sex.

after my first experience of giving head, i gained a deeper understanding of intimacy that i hadn't fully grasped before. stroking inner thighs, kissing groin, licking balls, sucking dick, and tasting cum? i believe i developed an oral fixation. lol.

i liked how the dick felt between my boobs and in my hands—warm, turning from soft to hard, and veiny—more so inside my mouth. how the precum dripped out was so hot, it served as a lubricant which made sucking easier. the reaction—sounds varying from soft sighs, moans, groans, and even chuckles—made it more fucking hot. how my hair was held the entire time with a few pulls every now and then. ugh surreal. i think i did good considering that it's my first time. he asked me saan ko natutunan 'yon kasi pang porn star daw. thanks pornhub for the free tutorials. haha!

as expected, though, his pussy game was too strong. been a year since the first (which i thought would be the last) and i still can’t quite find the right words to describe it—absolutely insane. we had to pause for a few times so i could catch my breath and stay grounded. honestly, i'm not sure how many times i orgasmed.

i was also rewarded with plenty of cum after we dry humped. just thinking about it now, i can feel myself getting wet and excited all over again. down bad.

and let's not talk about the fingering. i was briefly sent to heaven. but that's for another post.

nervousness and horniness can be a tricky mix, like the discomfort and thrill of having my firsts. but oddly enough, it offered a sense of comfort and excitement maybe because i could finally embrace and express my sexual desires.

it's clear, though, sex (in all its forms) is something i want to explore deeply than i initially thought. plays nasty by tinashe