I never been this obsessed with fe[M]dom before. I guess it's a childhood trauma driven that i was drowning into. Regardless the reason or how weird it is, I'm somehow satisfied for it.

For vanilla guys and ladies lurking here and feeling weird, let me explain it to you non-expertly with my experience:

During the foreplay, i love when the girl orders me around. Ironically, when the girl doesn't mind me while eating her pussy while she's doing some interviews online (or doing online class), I feel like she really needs me to satisfy her pleasure. That's where the feeling of being needs as a childhood comes from.

Being controlled was my only escape from trauma i have experienced as a child when i was feeling neglected.

I love it when a girl demands me to worship and massage her feet like i was owned by her.

I love it when a girl sits on my face, grinding her pussy until she cums.

I love it when we're doing some JOI (Jerk off instructions). It's like she will orders me when should i start to masturbate. Let me give you an example:

Her: "Are you ready to jerk off for me?" Me: "Yes ma'am" H: "You should start now. While liking my pussy" M: starts licking while jerking off H: "When i count from 10 to 1 you should have already finished jerking of".

Then she counts slowly.

Don't get me wrong, i like vanilla sex, but being in a state of satisfying only the pleasure of my girl makes me go hard more than vanilla sex.

That's where the humiliation foreplay comes in.

Medyo taboo na sa are na to so go back if you're not into it

This is where the underground of kinks goes deeper. It's like a development of basic kinks like foot worship and slapping mutates into more hard type of kinks. Like and addictive arousal that you're asking and wanting for more than basic.

This is where the humiliation enters. Example are: Spitting (like literally spitting on my face)

Verbal humiliation (like mumurahin ka talaga and huhumiliate ka like you're no longer a person) idk if this was extreme na but i guess yes

Shoe licking. Like licking the dirt off the shoes' soles

Pet play (like a dog). I really love this foreplay. During my first session, i used my belt around my neck while my girl holds it like I'm her pet. Demands me to kiss her feet and everything. And praises me like "good dog" makes my dick go bark.

CFNM (Clothed Female Naked Men) this was also my favorite. I really feel the humiliation and female supremacy in this foreplay. Its where the girl was fully clothed and I am fully naked. Since i was not interested in sexual intercourse, it was no problem to me, it's pure foreplay, best partners with Pet play.

Ballbusting. Kicking the balls (Yeah i know, i haven't tried it and won't either 😅 maybe soon lmao)

Golden shower. It's the pee of your girl straight out on your body, or face (or mouth if you're extreme hahah) I tried it, twice. It's good i guess. Still my dick questions my sanity if he likes it or not. But i would probably try it again

There are waaaay more exremes pa to be mentioned, but I'll stop here. There are unspoken rules and boundaries what should be discussed publicly.

Soooo.. idk if there are the same "weird" guys like me but, idc what people say hahaha as long as i am enjoying it, or some girl likes it also, then i see no problem 😀

Hope to do session with some redditors i have contacted with, we're supposed to do session earlier, but due to scheduling conflict, we're unable to do so.

I'll update you guys with the experience after we do session 😉