Had to process this over the last few days, I have no one to talk to about this and I'd rather not tell anyone, actually. Except here, ig, kasi I just need to let it out.

I've been away from home for a few weeks now, I'm somewhere in Visayas and it's not my first time to travel alone.

I met this guy over FB kasi siya yung contact ko sa place na pagsstayan ko. So siya na rin nagsundo sakin, etc. Naturally, he checks in on me from time to time, kasi nga mag-isa ako and siya rin tinatanong ko tungkol sa kung anu ano sa lugar. On my first night, he invited me to watch a game, so g lang ako kasi wala naman ako gagawin and para rin maikot yung lugar kasi sa kabilang bayan pa siya maglalaro. It was about a 20min ride away, so we had some chance to talk about random sht during the drive, what he does, what I do, blah blah. I met some of his family who played din that night. Wow, sa utak ko friends friends kami ganyan, he told me about the upcoming fiesta too, tas niloko ko na isama niya ko. Haha

Next day, I joined his other guests for a tour, so we were out the whole day. More chika pa with the other guests, kahit hindi ko maintindihan what they were talking abt half the time kasi it was in another dialect. After ng tour, we dropped off the other guests back and nagpasama ako sakanya magpa-laundry at grocery. Tas he offered na siya na lang daw magpick up kinabukasan nung laundry ko.

So the following day morning, kinatok niya muna ako sa room kasi ngangamusta, he was telling me about his plans and kung ano oras niya ma-pick up laundry ko, pupunta pa kasi siya LTO and stuff. Wala naman problema sakin kahit ano oras kasi I still had clean clothes and wala naman ako gagawin the whole day.

Eto na. Around 530ish dumating siya at kumatok, I was taking a nap then so I was wearing pambahay clothes lang and was a bit groggy pa. He asked if he can come in sa room. Dala niya yung laundry ko, he played with my camera for a bit, tapos knwento niya ano nangyari sa lakad niya, pagod na pagod daw siya so okay lang daw ba makihiga muna. Okay, dito na nagsimula kagagahan ko. Wag mo akong pagalitan. Haha! I know I was stupid to say yes. Tbf, ang laki ng kama sa room it could fit 4 people. So in my mind, hindi kami magdidikit if we both stayed on the opposite ends of the bed. BUT paghiga ko, biglang hinatak niya ako to cuddle. My kagagahan gets worse. I let him. Fine, cuddle, feels nice kasi touch-deprived ako. Wah. He was kissing my neck and breathing on it. Fuck, yun talaga trigger at weakness ko. And then it turned into grinding, umiiwas na ako nito and had to stand up kasi sabi ko umusog na siya dun sa kabilang side. Umusog naman siya, so humiga ako ulit. Boba lang? Pero hinatak niya ulit ako, and was grinding on me again from the back. Honestly, nababaliw na ako dito, kasi I was getting turned on na binabalik ko na yung mga pagbayo niya, I was feeling myself getting wet. He was fondling my boob and bumubulong na ng 'Sige pa, sige pa'. I was out of my mind, I reached for his dick and gave him a handjob, na-feel ko na he was already leaking. Hanggang sa hindi na niya siguro kinaya and removed my shorts and his, at pmwesto na siya to fuck me. I was lying face down on the bed, he was telling me na humarap ako sakanya and I honestly couldnt kasi hiyang hiya ako sa pinaggagagawa ko, but at the same time sarap na sarap. The whole time I was facing down lang or to the side, but my hair was covering my face. He was doing other positions while I was lying down and it just keeps getting better ?? Sarap talaga puta. Tapos bumubulong siya ng 'fuck. Fuck' until he pulled out and came on my back.

Grabe, nun ako nagka-post nut clarity. Lol. If there is even such a thing for girls. I was feeling confused and didnt want to see/talk to him because of what he did/what happened. Pumunta ako sa cr agad to wash off, paglabas ko he was dressed up na about to head off. Pagkaalis niya, I was on the verge of tears and then cried for a few minutes. I didnt know how to process what happened and what I was feeling. Sobrang mali sa pakiramdam, pero ba't ang sarap? Gaga ng taon. She's a what? A slut.