The beginning of this story started around 5 years ago, I was going through a lot and I had just decided to fuck around for a while just to relieve stress and distract myself from reality. I had always been sexually active, I always enjoyed fucking girls and at that point of my life, I had never been with a guy. Not only have I never been with a guy, I've never experienced being sexually attracted to one....

Until all of this happened

It all just started one day, when one of my friends na babae noticed that I had a really nice ass, so what happened was I was just sitting sa chair tas she took a pic of just my ass tas sinend niya sa isang mutual friend namin na guy who really liked looking at ass pics.

At the time, I didn't have much confidence about myself besides the ocassional "oh, I look fucking good today" days

Around that time kasi, I was really into wearing leggings and yoga pants because they were really comfy! kaya siguro naemphasize talaga pwet ko haha

Tas what happened was, yung mutual friend namin he immediately was really really into the pic of my ass, kahit di niya alam kung sino yun.

Tas I felt... Really fucking sexy and attractive? Hahaha, like, more than I usually do, for the first time in a while at that point

So ayun, my friend na girl was teasing our mutual friend kasi he was really asking kung sino yung nasa picture and she was teasing him na like "ohhh, friend natin to, gusto mo ba talaga malaman kung sino?" And like, he legit thought na the picture was of a girl so he started guessing names of girls na mutuals namin

Tas like, I didn't really mind that he thought I was a girl? I just felt really happy that someone was really turned on by a physical characteristic/trait I had. Tas eventually like, sinabi nung friend ko na girl sa mutual namin na ako yun tas he was fucking dumbfounded haha. He said na akala niya talaga babae yung nasa picture, and he said na if he wasn't straight and if we weren't friends, he probably would've tried hitting me up.

So like, ever since this happened I kind of... Started to wear leggings and yoga pants more? Haha. Ayun, madalas outfit ko sa school non was leggings/yoga pants tas a really baggy hoodie. I started to get more and more compliments from some of my friends about how I looked(most of the time about my ass) both from guys and girls.

Pero like, I felt something different when guys who were openly lgbt would compliment me. Kasi their compliments were more upfront, and sometimes even flirty?

And I fucking loved that feeling na parang... Desired ako?

What happened nun was like... I really wanted more compliments, I wanted that feeling of being desired more. Pero I wasn't sure if I was ready to like, openly ask for it from people I know

Kasi like, I wasn't sure sa sarili ko din if I really was attracted, I wasn't sure sa feelings ko, all I knew is that I wanted to feel desired, So I started nalang sa reddit and grindr hahaha

Tas like, ayun, I started taking more photos of my own ass to show guys online para makuha ko yung compliments na gusto ko, But I never had the guts to like, actually try doing something with a guy? At the time.

Pero ano, I started playing with my ass to see how it would feel, it felt really fucking good. First I started w/ fingers lang syempre haha Tas like, I was working my way up slowly. Like, sharpee I wasn't using for anything, a thicker marker, a brush handle. Tas eventually I couldn't find anything more that I could use.... So I bought a dildo. So ayun, I started fucking my ass w/ the dildo and it felt amazing. Pero apart from this there was one other thing I wanted to try....

I loved watching girls give blowjobs in porn? And I loved receiving blowjobs from my usual one night stands and fubus/fwbs. So I got curious about why some girls loved giving blowjobs.... So I bought a second dildo hahaha

Tas ayun, I started fucking my ass w/ the first dildo while sucking the second one. Tas like, I'd just start imagining that I was trying to please and pleasure a real person, Kasi I really wanted them to desire me.

I always fucking loved pleasuring my sexual partners naman (like w/ girls before my first time with a guy). Pero like, just imagining how a guy would react sa ginagawa ko, like, manggigigil sakin tas di mapipigilan yung libog niya, tas i-maman handle ako, kakantot-kantutin ako na parang puta ako, it turned me on so fucking much.

So ayun, like, one day I really just decided to fucking go for it, so I started to look for someone, Cause I really wanted to know if I would really enjoy the real thing. So ayun, I hopped on reddit and grindr to find someone who I felt really wanted to just use me for his pleasure, And like, di lang naman yun, someone who made me feel like he really desired me.

Ayun I eventually found someone when I was alone sa condo so I invited him up. Beforehand he was really, really fucking head over heels sa ass ko so that felt really fucking nice. I sent him a ton of ass pictures. He loved every single one of them tas he responded by sending me a dick pic...

Fuck... fuck... FUCK!! Tangina, ang laki ng tite nya. I mean, I'm not "small" small pero nung nakita ko tite nya nanliit ako and it felt good. I think it was 6.5 or 7 inches long tas ang THICK pa, like imagine yung slim na coke in can. Tangina I started drooling dahil sa tite nya, iniimagine ko lang na lumalabas pasok sa mouth and ass ko.

The pics I were sending him so far were my usual leggings and yoga pants pics but recently noon, I bought... Pekpek shorts? Di ko sure if yun yung tawag hahaha. Basta yung shorts na sobrang ikli na lumalabas na yung pwet ko. He was at work and told me na he would come over that night, to get him excited I sent him a few pics of me wearing the short shorts. He... fucking... loved them. He sent me a video of him jerking off sa office, nag init ako while watching it.

So I asked him if he wanted me to wear them(the pekpek shorts) before he came up sa condo, Tas he said na if I did wear them, he'd fuck me until i couldn't walk... So I immediately wore them hahaha. Tas ayun, I waited for him sa condo, my heart was pounding so fucking much because of nervousness and excitement. I was waiting sa room, I didn't want to go out of the room kasi baka may makakita sakin na naka short shorts ako, just waiting for a guy to come fuck me.

My hands started shaking when I saw his message "Papasok na ako ng elev", I started counting every second since nakita ko yung message na yun. He knocked tas like, unang knock palang nya tumayo nako agad and binuksan ko na yung door before pa niya natapos yung pagknoknock nya (sorry na, I was really excited to get fucked).

He looked down at me and smirked, my heart was pounding like crazy, I could hear it in my ears. He told me to spin around because he wanted to look at my body, all this time nasa labas siya ng door na naka bukas parin. I followed his order sakin because I felt like yun lang yung dapat kong gawin. I spun around slowly from him, presenting myself to him, hoping to God that he likes what he sees, I felt his eyes on me... nung nakatalikod na ako sakanya he asked me to bend over, and I did... No questions asked, sinusundan ko lang agad lahat ng pinapagawa nya sakin.

While I was bent over he slapped my ass, I was so scared na marinig kami ng neighbors ko pero at the same time I was so turned on sa mga pinapagawa nya sakin. He had me wrapped around his finger tas at the time, yung nasa isip ko lang was "I hope he wants me wrapped around his dick too".

After slapping my ass he told me to come outside of the door, so I did kasi di naman ako makahindi sakanya. I instinctively went closer sakanya, I pressed my body against his tas tinatago ko face ko sa chest niya incase anyone went by. He pulled me out into the hallway, tas yung hands niya, ang laki... Like, sobrang laki talaga, nang liit ako sa kamay niya, sa pressence niya. Linagay niya yung isa niyang hand sa neck ko tas yung isa rinun down niya from my back hanggang sa pwet ko. He squeezed my ass, mej nag dig in yung nails niya sa balat ko pero it felt good, it felt right.

I was leaking hard, hindi lang sa cock ko pero pati na din sa butas ko. Sinabi ko sakanya, mahina tas nanginginig boses ko, sinabi ko na gusto ko nang pumasok sa room kasi baka makita kami ng ibang tao. Sabi niya sakin tingin muna daw ako sakanya, kasi nga at that point, naka burry yung mukha ko sa chest niya. So I did, I looked up at him, tas naka grin-lipbite siya, he told me to stick my tongue out... I knew what he was about to do but I just followed him anyways because that was what I was made for. I stuck my tongue out and my eyes looked up at him(for context, he was 5'10-5'11 and I was 5'4-5'5). Yung sobrang laking hand niya na nasa neck ko, tinaas niya towards my mouth tas pinasok niya yung makapal na thumb niya sa loob ng mouth ko while he said one word... "Suck".

I followed him, I started sucking on his thumb while I was looking into his eyes, it felt degrading but it also felt like I was at home, like I was in my rightful place. When he was satisfied na sa pag-suck ko sa thumb nya, he told me to stop and open my mouth wide while sticking my tongue out. So I did, I was there, looking like a whore with my mouth open, tongue out while I was looking up at him. He leaned in and spat in my mouth before turning around going into my condo.

(While writing I realized that this post was getting a bit too long so I think this is a good point to end part 1. I'll post part 2 soon. <3 )

Edit: I felt like I should share the pic that my friend na girl took of me that started all of this <3