Had a wonderful conversation with a friend regarding dating and what drives us to go out on dates, to no one’s surprise, we both had the same answer.

Lust.

It seems like whenever we go out to meet new ppl, we dont fap para may motivation kami to go see the kameet-ups. Hahaha. Tried fapping before meeting someone from here and I got so chill, my initial excitement to see the person was gone by the time we got together, ending ay we just had coffee haha. Took me a month uli to find the energy to make landi. I want genuine connection pero getting laid is still a priority for me (if I havent had the chance to love myself prior the meetup), sa sobrang accessible ng physical connection hindi na nagkakaroon ng chance to comnect emotionally.

Thing is, I usually connect on a deeper level with ppl that I dont lust after, and vice versa. Building a solid friendship with a situationship puts out the fire in my loins but it makes the relationship sustainable. Not showing vulnerability with a situationship makes the sex so fucking awesome and short lived. Haha.

Like the libog dies when I can’t objectify my partner anymore.

Best example was this situationship I have for almost a year na, he asked for us to be ig moots. I obliged naman. Might as well, haha, ilan buwan na rin. He was exactly my type, gym rat cutie na may hawig kay Erwan H., went scrolling sa feed niya and I saw this heartfelt post for a family member. And. Idk. He became human in my eyes and now I cant seem to make landi na. Huhuhu.

Am a woman but why the fuck do I have the madonna whore complex din? If may male counterpart ang madonna.

Are we all just horny and emotionally unavailable hooman beings?

PS: the friend that I was referring to is a male, we used to date and fuck pero it seems like friendship is the best route for us. Haha