Hi, 21 M. I just feel so badd really bad, and need ko lang ng mapag lalabasan and some advisement.

Nag-ayaan kami ng fb friend ko mag inoman sa apartment, redhorse.(we chatted and call na for more than 2 weeks na din). As a guy na nakikipag hook up and more than 10 body counts, i know this is going to be an exciting night. So dalawang 500ml ininom namin kwentuhan family and random about life, and i'm kinda hrny and gusto na mag first move, as my past hook up hinahalikan ko lang lalapitan tutuloy na pero this girl sobrang na ngunguna yung friend vibe ko sakanya and i don't know how to pitch or even give him a sign. So i stood up and attempt to kiss her siguro gulat sya and biglang nabadtrip at umuwi. Tinry ko mag sorry at pigilan, pero ayaw. Kaya hinatid ko nalang sa sakayan, i chat her and try to apologize pero binlock nako. Now, nasa kwarto ako nahimasmasan na and feel terible sa behaviour ko, i shouldve ask first or wait for signals. I'm kind of person na hindi marunong kasi magbasa ng tao and nasanay na sa ganung set up so i expected na okay lang . Now i'm thinking siguro if diko lang binigla at dinahan dahan siguro nag c-cuddle na kami ngayon LOL

Anw, wala na kaming communication and honestly type ko sya she's older than me ng 2 years