Earlier today, it was pouring heavily & my flats were already soaked. It was so hard walking with them, but I wanted to go home agad so I persisted through my pace. Suddenly, a motorcyclist stopped beside me & inaudibly said something. I approached him 'cause I thought he was asking for directions, but I couldn't make out what he was saying. I shook my head and said, "Kuya, 'di kita marinig."

I continued walking, I thought he'd drive away pero he only revved to a few feet away lang. Maybe kasi may dumaang ibang tao. He looked at me again and spoke. At some point, I thought I was being held up. May barricade naman between us, and this isn't Metro. That shit doesn't really happen here, so against my better judgment, kinausap ko ulit. I thought maybe he really needed help kasi kinakausap pa din ako.

Alas... when I asked him ano ba talaga sinasabi... it became clear to me.

"One night stand, six thousand."

When it dawned on me, I backed a good distance away from him. I continued walking na & avoided eye contact. Sinasabayan niya pa rin ako, "Gusto mo ba?"

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I dismissed him with my hand, still not looking at him. At this point, I was too stunned to speak and honestly disgusted... at myself? At him? I don't even know honestly what to feel until now. Umalis naman na siya after, and I messaged my "friend" what just happened.

He was cursing the guy, ako iniisip ko na mukha ba akong madaling babae? When I was heart broken last year, naghanap din ako ng mga SFW na kalaro in Valo here sa reddit. Kapag tinatanong ako about my break up, nagshishare naman ako. Pero ending, inaaya akong puntahan to hook up. Thought to myself nalang na perhaps they thought I can be easily manipulated to hook up since I was extremely vulnerable.

With what happened though, I can't really stop myself from concluding na baka I give off a "pa-easy" vibe. Or am I unaware na madali lang talaga ako? Or normal ba talaga na incident 'yun? Am I just being overly sensitive? Ewan ko.