I (M19) just had oral sex with another guy and I don't feel good about it. We started talking a couple days ago on Growlr and eventually met up in person at a store to greet each other face to face. Afterwards, we kept texting each other, about our day and other things, which eventually led us to meeting up tonight. We talked for a little while and then I sucked him for a little bit, and he did the same to me. Neither one of us came from it. Now that he left about an hour ago. I don't feel good, I feel upset, I can still feel his penis in mouth and it makes me want to gag, heave, and vomit.

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Preface:

1. I initiated it and I wanted to do it. At no point in time was I uncomfortable with it nor did I feel pressured by him

2. I have read a lot of gay smut romance, from fanfictions on wattpad to published works.

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So I just need an outside opinion, Am I on the ace spectrum? Am I just sex-replused? Were my expectations too high? Was he just not the one? Did I rush myself without knowing it? I would just like your input on this because I feel like a mess right now.