So as you must have read title, this is not a normal post.

Lemme share y'all a story to start my problem with. I met this girl (let's go with her fake name initial say Z) on an app and we hit it off immediately. We met a couple of times and we liked each other.

After that we decide to date eachother properly. Now here comes the thing, I am a guy who had been cheated on thrice with two different girls and one of them did it twice with 6 boys☠️. Yes I am a dumbass so I don't wanna hear that in comments.

The problems occured were the lack of efforts from my side which I did explained to her that I'll need a while to trust her and we will move slowly. We did.

And everything smoothened out from my side. I start to get serious, and she was the first girl in my whole life to even put bare minimum for me without asking. She used to bring roses many times. I used to bring her sunflowers (her favourite) and did so many others. Now at here I started to melt down and gained a bit feelings.

That's when she dropped it.

That she loves a guy she was kn situationship with. She loves him so much that she had begged him. And he treated her like shit. Lile total shit. Didn't even talk to her.

Me being a guy, saw this as an opportunity to make my place in her heart as we were dating and I kimda liked her so, I helped her getting over that situation.

After that she moved to her parents house back in rajkot (we both live in Ahmedabad city. different locations she was from rajkot) and there things started to fog out.

At times she used to cut me off saying her brain was fogged and she needed time to think. And she doesn't want to continue maybe coz she is in confusion with me and the guy she's in love with.

After that, I gave her space she needed. I couldn't see her like that.

3 weeks passed, she never messaged me. I rarely did and uses to update her on things. My feelings stewed for her. And then yesterday I couldn't control and told her. She said I never stood a chance and now that she's clear that she only wants him. We can't continue, coz she doesn't want us to work.

I've a problem of going off the rails with my emotions and I was a Playboy a long time ago. I've been so broken because of her and my recent cheating past. Because I wasn't over that and she kimda used me.

What should I do ahead of my life? Where do I go? Can everything be fixed from here w her? Should I go again to the hoe phase when I don't wanna? What are the options.? Go as dry insulting as possible, until it's a real thing to say.