When I 20F met my dada 51M ( I don't want any judgment on the age gap) a year ago my parents kicked me out due to me wanting a daddy because they thought it was something sexual. I've been living with dada ever since with the idea that I could be little whenever I wanted however the reality of it is in a year I've been truly little once. I speak mostly with my baby voice but I've not truly been little, I really want to regress right now because I'm overwhelmed and have had sh thoughts while I was showering today (didn't act on it because I know from experience it doesn't help) but I can't because I've got two 81 year olds to care for and now a 10 month old rescue dog who I'm slightly scared of. I just want to lock myself in a room and be baby but I can't because we don't have a room as what is my space is being used as storage.