A little info: A coworker of mine yelled at me and called me a child, I mean really laid into me for like 10 whole minutes strait yelling the entire time and now I feel terrible. I try really hard to not regress at work and sometimes my little side slips out but I don’t think I deserve to be yelled at about it. I usually have a few toys to play with durring down time because i stare at screens all day and find something to play with is better/healthier than stareing at my phone. Sometimes I slip up and speak in baby or bable unintentionally. And I tend to dress childish as well eg my shoes have velcro and I won’t wear shirts that have buttons. And in all honesty when he called me a child in my head i though to myself “that compliment isn’t the insult you think it is” I often get pushed out of conversations between my coworkers (if i have anything to say certainly someone will just speak over me as if im not even there) I don’t usually have any interest in the conversations anyway but its frustraiting to never get my word in. My job is creative and I produce art and excel over all my peers and have been the longest lasting employee at my company, I do the most work, usually the hardest work and constantly have to train new people because turnover is bad. I really don’t understand why I can’t just be left alone since I work hard and get my work done (usually better quality and more timely than my peers). I travel a lot for work (almost every week), when we stay in hotels and the work day is done everyone wants to go out for dinner and drinks and socialize, but I don’t enjoy that at all and feel like I’m forced to attend. Well usually all ride in the same vehicle so i have no choice. Sometimes i drive by myself in my own car to avoid having to “go with the group” (my coworker said that I was selfish because i don’t want to ride along) In all honesty I’d rather grab some fast food a retreat back to my room for cartoons, plushies and my coloring book. But i don’t even understand why needed to yell at me or even mad in first place.

What happened:

we had finished work late (10pm) and had 1 more night in the hotel so i got up early the next morning to visit a museum i really wanted to go to and even though I drove myself there the second i got to the museum i got angry call because someone in the group wanted to ride home with me because the other car was packed. I told him I went to go sight seeing and he blew up angry with me. I told him i’d come back to the hotel and get him. When i got there he got in my car and when we left he started yelling at and berating me. I probably should have kicked him out and went back to the museum. He ruined the entire trip for me and now I’m all upset and can’t stop thinking about it.

I’m really sorry for the rant but it really hurt my feelings and I need to release the tension. If this kind of post isn’t allowd please remove it.