I’m so so so scared. Every time I try to slip into littlespace by listening to a ddlg audio I start crying because recently again someone tried the “D” word title on me without my consent. You know how they just start claiming they’re your “D” without your consent? It made me feel so violated and I kept crying and crying. I explored littlespace since 17 (2-3 yrs ago) and experienced lots of groomers and mean people. Trying to heal from my abusive childhood and plus the trauma I encountered while looking for a safe space…is so incredibly heartbreaking. I feel so weak and broken I don’t think I can go on but my littlespace is so precious to me I need help. How can I make it safe for me? How can I make the D word safe for me again without thinking of all the incidents that gave me anxiety attacks?

When people just force it and try to claim it as if it isn’t the most special word for a vulnerable smol one…it breaks a piece of my heart each time and makes it less and less special. I feel like a little bird clinging to this imaginary image of a human protecting me and then people keep fisting chunks out of him and i can I can tolerate them hurting me, but hurting the idea/image of my future Daddy? They have no right to take away the specialness of him😔😖 what do I do??