In my previous post I shared how stressed and anxious I was about speaking to my general practitioner in order to apply for therapy. There were a bunch of supportive comments and they helped in giving me strength to finally opening up a bit and ask for the kind of help I want and need.

I had my appointment this morning, granted I didn’t sleep, but I made it, got there, gathered my courage, said my stuff, and now I’m finally on my way to actual help.

Still feels weird and scary. Even though I know what happened happened, and that it was wrong, I still don’t want it to be true and this first time opening up starts making things ‘real’ for me… that still scares me…

BUT, I’m also glad I’m where I’m at right now, I hope it’s the first step to feeling better in the end.

Thank you all <3