So, I’ve been trying to pay more and more attention to my sexual behavior. I’ve been married for almost 24 years and have, on numerous occasions “misbehaved”. It’s caused tons of issues and we’ve been working hard to sort them all out.

Not only did I survive years of abuse at the hands of my brother, but I also suffer bipolar disorder. Which, when in a manic it has the wonderful addition of hyper sexuality. So, I’m sorta up a creek without a boat.

The thing I’ve just started to understand about myself, and absolutely hate, is I lack the ability to say no if sex is offered. Even if I’m upset with my wife, or frustrated with something, or really, just not in the mood. If she turns and offers, I want to say no, but never can. And that’s been the issue with other things and other people.

I’m doing my best to stay out of situations where things like this might pop up, but inevitably I find myself in a position where I’m facing something I don’t want to be involved in.

Does anyone else have this issue? Where if sex is offered;by a SO or pretty much anyone, even if you aren’t in the mood, trying to remain faithful, or whatever; you just lack the ability to turn it down?

Or am I just a weak willed idiot thinking that this is a reasonable excuse for my stupidity?