I'm a 27 uk male but sadly from the age of 2 or 3 up to about 6 mu female babysitter made me do things to her like lick her out and finger her and ducked my cock now as I've got older I've gained so much hatred from it but at the same time her doing them things to me and making me do things ro her had got my head all over the place one minute it turns me on the next time I feel sick it's nasty to think think did that to me but I also love sex and am very kinky but the thought of her while I'm having sex makes me cum so hard it's disgusting I'm currently taking loafs of seld medication to stop the flash back but isn't working has anyone got any advice or similar story's please sorry for the post I just need some support for it .....if you check my profile it hasn't affected my sex life me and the wife are super happy and sexy time is amazing but yer again back to the fact this women is disgusting but it makes me cum and hard sometimes what's wrong with me