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Iāve (46F) wondered for a long time if I was abused when I was a child and have repressed memories. There are a few things that make me wonder if something happened:
1) I donāt really have memories from when I was a kid. What few āmemoriesā I do have are basically just like looking at a photograph in my mind.
2) Recently Iāve been having intense dreams where Iām angry, yelling & shouting, and fighting someone. Iāve actually swung at and kicked my husband in my sleep, and woken up the neighbors in our three-family apartment building with my shouting.
3) I am terrified of being tickled. If someone even jokes about tickling me, I panic. If Iām tickled even by mistake, I instinctively lash out and kick violently, and nearly have a panic attack.
Iād like to see a professional to talk about the possibility of abuse and repressed memories, but I have no clue what to look for. Iāve seen therapists in the past for depression, and I know how hard it can be to find one thatās a good fit. What abbreviations should I look for, specialties, or treatment modalities? I also have state insurance/Medicaid, so Iām sure the options are limited (no, I cannot pay out-of-pocket). But any help or info you might have on who/what to look for would be greatly appreciated. Thank you all so much.
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