For starters, I (23m) have been soul searching for the past 2 years cause I've never been in a serious and intimate relationship before and I've been feeling lonely. I've been involved in many dates but the last one hits the core for me, I just thought this past month I met someone who is open to listen to me and can relate to me but then everything just faded out and he called it quits. I realised that the reason why I am searching for the one is cause of the fear of being alone, I have been alone for all my life so why am I scared of it.

My family keeps on pestering me of getting in a relationship already cause they don't want me to end up alone and lonely, I know they mean well but I just don't want to be in a relationship cause I am afraid of being left alone, not all relationships last long and I don't want to end up in a situation where if they left me I'll be miserable, I want to be ready and face the challenge of being left. I must fix myself first before I meet someone right now I am growing and hopefully I will be contented with what I have.