I'm 24F. Typical asian eldest daughter na strong independent woman. And now I'm exploring the world of hookup, enjoyed it kasi I know na I can't commit sa serious relationship and at the same time I can enjoy sex and cuddles.

Experienced tons of downfalls. Na after sex saka ako magsisisi or malulungkot na parang literal na nagamit lang ako. No cuddles, no kwentuhan, marunong magsundo pero di marunong maghatid. Na kahit madaling araw na kayo matapos at umuwi, hindi ka man lang icchat if nakauwi ka na ba or hindi. Though i'm not expecting those things naman dahil I know na hookup to eh, sex lang talaga. But sometimes I feel na hanggang dito lang ba talaga ako?

Tried different apps, different platforms. Sinisisi ako ng friends ko na kesyo baka ako daw kasi nag iinitiate. Pero kahit anong try kong gawing sfw ng usapan, napupunta at napupunta doon. And eventually naggive in ako kasi nakakakuha din naman ako ng pleasure and at the same time nabboost yung ego ko kapag kinocompliment yung katawan ko.

But now I want to quit kasi I feel na hindi na sya good thing for me and i'm starting to feel cheap and easy to get. I was unbothered before but when my friends make me feel na ang easy to get and cheap ko, na sila ayaw nilang paabutin sa gantong number yung body count nila. Sobrang bumababa yung tingin ko sa sarili ko.

And now I dont know how to quit, I feel like I kept on falling on the same cycle na lagi akong nabbiktima sa wholesome invites na usually mag eend up sa sex. Then maffeel ko na pangsex lang talaga ako and magffall back na naman ako sa hookups.