Hi. I speak for that awkward or isolated person sa social setting, introverted na kung introverted, but I know something else is wrong and I can’t fully define it

Actually hindi naman struggle sakin magcommunicate, ang problema is halos wala akong ka-wavelength pagdating sa common interests. Kahit sa music na main interest ko, may sarili akong mundo. Sa tuwing nakikipag usap ako sa kaklase ko nung college, palagi silang nakaka cover ng topic na di ko alam, tapos from there nagsstruggle na ako maka catch up and di na lang nakakapagsalita.

I tried to “get out of the comfort zone” and sumali sa circles na labas sa interest ko, pero overtime lumilitaw lang na di talaga ako interested, aka the mask wears off. Same sa pagtry ng hobbies and maging hustler. Even my music hobby began to feel like work.

4 years of college and wala akong naka-close na tulad ng nagawa ko nung high school, but is generally friendly (kung tama iniisip ko). I feel more lonely than ever, burnt out tapos magrereview pa sa boards (di ko rin talaga interest ang course so it takes conscious effort), and the world as I know it previously starts to crumble.

Such burnout and ngayon wala na akong interes sa mundo, and with enough time through the years na wala akong napaglalaanan ng focus na ‘to, I also begin to struggle functioning on a daily basis.

How can I start anew? I know there’s things na di ko naoobserve kahit self conscious ako, but I don’t know what to do kaya nandito ako to seek help as last resort