*how bad things are rn

Ang hirap maging adult.

Noong 17 years old ako, I can't wait to move out, have a career, own a house, meet my partner— basically build a future for myself.

But now that I'm in my 20s something and getting tangled into all of this mess, I miss the days where I can still go out with my old friends and do the things I love with having nothing to worry about.

I am currently unemployed, my work contract just ended. I'm still awaiting my final pay which is taking too long to process. I'm 2 months past due my apartment fees, my bills (electric, water, internet) are already nearing their due dates. I'm broke. I'm loveless. My family (mother and freeloader brother) whom I provide for of almost 10k monthly, suddenly treats me like sh*t just because I wasn't able to give anything this past month (which makes me feel like my worth is dependent only on how much I can give). I don't know where to turn. My life's a mess.

So, please, if you're comfortable enough to share how complicated your life as well, that'd mean a lot and help in making feel less alone.

How are you these days?