I feel like a broken record, posting here about her, but it’s my only safe space. It’s been months since AP (31F) and I (40M) have had any sort of physical contact, but I still absolutely crave her touch 24/7. I’ve never felt so connected to someone. So much so that I debate leaving my SO for her. I can’t and won’t, but it’s constantly on my mind. I’ve never felt such a connection. Such passion. Such mutual love between two people. It’s like the world pushed us together when neither of us knew we needed each other, and then ripped us apart.

I keep thinking about seeking out another AP, but, I know it will never work- it’ll never be the same. So instead, I sit here in a DB, alone, craving any sort of romance- trying to throw myself into my work to make the days go by.