I’ve joined in an effort to reach a place of understanding or direction to a better place for me to go (and I’m likely to get downvoted and escorted out shortly, but I hope this post means something to someone) for people and their situations/inherent humanity, but I just can’t get 100% there. I was a completely unaware AP to someone I considered as a best friend for 13 years and it has completely changed how I view sex and relationships. My trust in people in this realm of my life has been absolutely ruined—event happened more than two years ago and still hurts like it was this morning. How are you able to compartmentalize and justify your actions? Do you see your APs as subhuman? I’m totally sorry if these questions are inappropriate; I’m crying into my phone right now feeling completely miserable and just trying to look for answers.

I’m not out to say anyone is wrong; you justify things how you justify them and it’s not my place to judge. I would just like some insight, I suppose? I’m a believer that everyone is a 1, and 1=1, so no one’s 1 is better or more important than someone else’s. You can see where I’m having the problem here, maybe.