Would you believe me if I told you someone that ghosted me a year ago made their way into my life again? She had an ad up, I sent her a message because I felt we were looking for the same thing. At first things went very well. It was as if we’d known each other forever. As if I knew this person already. I was caught up in the excitement and failed to make the connections.

The same person that ghosted me a year ago was now in my Dms! We were having a great chat when she brought it up to me. She was certain we had spoken before. We exchanged information that only both of us would know. Turns out, we did in fact talk more than a year ago. At first, I was so shocked. I mean, what are the odds right?

She filled my head with things like “maybe it was fate” and I bought in. I was unsure of how to respond so I asked for time to process things. The next day she told me that she got caught the last time we spoke and that she had to cut it off. She claimed she looked for me. She said she thought about me all the time. She said everything I wanted to hear. It sounded like we were on good terms. We wanted to make this work. We felt all the feels. I was high on feelings.

One day, to my surprise, her account was once again deleted. I cried a bit inside. What hurt the most was the fact that she gave me hope. I could wake up each day knowing it would be a little better because i had her by my side.

I don’t know if she got caught, if the feelings were too much for her to handle, or if she wasn’t interested and wanted to ghost me again. At this point I’m just tired of it all. I don’t know if I’ll ever find the courage to hope again.

Jo if you’re out there reading my message, please know I genuinely cared about you. I don’t think I deserve what you’ve put me through. I won’t put myself through this again. May our paths never cross again. - J