I am currently sitting here, miserable because I have to make a choice and I don't know what the right answer is...

On one hand, I have a farm with a wife and animals to care for, I'm almost the sole supplier for the home (wife on disability due to a work accident), and she cannot be left to live by herself due to her medical issues. I have felt for a long time that she was using me and leaving me wanting affection and consideration.

On a work trip to Mexico I met my AP. It wasn't supposed to be anything more than just a tour around the city, learning about the culture, etc... but we ended up falling for each other really hard. She has been my support in the darkest days with my wife, who I feel honorbound not to leave because of her medical issues and essentially killing her dream (the farm is her wish, not mine. I just go along with it).

Now my wife caught us and she desperately wants to make things right and keep me. She wants us to work, but after what she put me through for years, she understands if I leave...

I don't know what to do. My AP is an amazing woman who has shown me what actual consideration looks like, but she is in Mexico and we don't know how the logistics can work considering what her job is. I love my wife and I don't want her to lose out on her dreams because of me, but I don't want to lose out on my dreams and to share them with a woman who has the same ideas and dreams as I do.

No kids, just a lot of animals...