Today is the first anniversary of when I first started chatting with my AP. It only lasted about 4 months but it was non-stop chatting and lots of meetups.

I know she felt the same way about me but she had to deal with a lot of guilt all the time. She said her husband found out but I think it was just an easy way out.

I think about her everyday, even have dreams about her. Was it just that thrill and rush of the first time or can I find this feeling again? I've tried a couple more times but nothing ever comes close.

I know she didn't block me completely because I sent her a song a few weeks ago and she responded saying I'm sorry.

Miss you AC