I’ve been with my AP for about a year, they’re my first AP. I like them a lot more than I ever intended to. They had a work event: obviously went with their spouse, had a great time, had great sex with their spouse in that post party energy. We’re both cake eaters, but I am jealous anyways, i don’t like this feeling of being jealous of my AP’s spouse or life. I’m partly jealous of the sex, but really more the whole situation : getting to go out in public, meeting friends and coworkers, being part of their life. The possessive look is not good on me, or anyone really.

My relationship is decent. I know that if we put some work in, our marriage could be really great. Now I’m wondering why I can’t seem to put in the work on my own life to make it better so I’m happier where I am. Or at least put in the work to give it a fair chance to see if this is where I want to be and remain.

I guess it’s time for therapy? Anyone have experience with an infidelity therapist specifically?