I've been in an extremely happy and fulfilling affair with my AP for the past 3 and a half years. He came into my life when I met him a few weeks after he moved into my city. It was supposed to be a temporary affair because he planned to move back in a few months.

We connected so well on so many levels that he decided not to move back, found a job here, and stayed here just to be with me. Now, I don't know what my life is without him in it. I did not start things off intending to get attached, but I am so emotionally and physically attached to him.

The problem is that he got his dream job, but it will be 4000 miles away from me in a whole other continent. He says that he wouldn't leave if I told him not to, but I can't be that selfish. He is happy with me, but chasing his dreams would make him happier, wouldn't it?

We decided to end things for good when he leaves in two weeks. I am meeting him every day since we found out that this is ending, but I can't get enough of him. I don't think I can have enough of him in the next two weeks to feel okay about losing him from my life.

I'm so heartbroken, I cry whenever I am by myself. I am a mess. I am going to miss him so much. How do I cope with this change?