Just needed to vent. Kind words appreciated.

Been in a deadbedroom marriage for longer than I can remember. I've been trying to fill the void for so long. Just want to feel wanted, appreciated, attractive. I recently connected with someone I really enjoyed talking to. Funny, kind, sweet, attentive and on the same page sexually. We were supposed to meet tonight, and I woke this morning to a message that said he couldn't go through with it. Crushing. I felt like I had such a good connection with him. I'm literally sitting here crying. I don't think I can take the rejection anymore. I get enough of that at home, and now it feels like I'm just piling it on myself. So I think I'm just going to stop looking. It just seems less emotionally stressful to just stay where I am secretly unhappy.