Not my regular account. This is a vent/support post.

I am a married man (38) for over 10 years and have two kids. Hit dead bedroom since wife is asexual.

My wife, on the other hand, is just happy being with me as long as I show affection. I have tried explaining her but she takes the marriage for granted which is the social construct in India.

Decided to enter the world of adultery because my love language is touch. Unless I get touched, I don’t feel connected with the person at all. I felt I was not being loved by the SO at all. I neither intended to abandon her nor will do so in future.

I enrolled in all possible apps - Bumble, Tinder, Hinge, Gleeden and whatnot. I was never sure what I was looking for. My freakish thoughts put off even those few who slid into my DMs. This was in 2022.

Come 2023, during the second half of the year, I received DM on Reddit from this woman. She is a single woman a few years younger than me. We kept saying hi-bye for many months. Since Feb this year, we began hitting it off. We sexted many times and I found a deep mutual connection with her. I found her genuine and she told me likewise.

She is happy with my being the ideal family man in her eyes. I am happy with her being an ideal support and I see her as a means to see what passion and emotional connection means which I never experienced with my wife. Going by her indications, we will meet soon.

My requests to switching over to other platforms and exchanging pics frequently have not been acceded to so far. I hope I get to meet her soon - to simply enjoy touch and feel.