Guess I’d never really thought about it much until today…went out as a family today, which is rare now but we did. Just a quick trip to the park and shopping. Lots of other families also out and about.

Couldn’t help but stop and wonder? How many married individuals partake in this lifestyle? And is there a deviation between male vs female?

I watched as a mom pushed her child on the swing and wondered if she had an AP on the side and getting her needs met. A mother and wife as well as a hot suburb woman who will later get fucked so well by her side piece ?

A father who was chasing after his son, who happened to exchange a quick glance over at me before returning to playing with his kid. He had no idea why I was looking at him and so I’m sure he thought maybe I was checking him out but I wasn’t; was just in deep thought of if he does home to fuck his wife, his AP or Both at some point. Or nobody because he’s married and stuck in a dead bedroom situation but his loyalty keeps him in line and this lifestyle isn’t for him.

Has anyone ever had thoughts like this? Or am I just completely losing my grip on reality now after exploring this lifestyle for a little over a month and learning more and more each day and slowly wishing I had not. If I think about it too much, it can kinda overtake me and leave me with a bleak feeling of the world and relationships. That none of us truly have it any better and your grass is only green if watered. Or maybe it’s actually the single people in life who aren’t married and don’t partake in adultery that get to laugh all the way to the bank. No point to this point other than to say I’m so glad Dry January is almost up so that I can at least have a glass of white wine again to quiet some of these deep thoughts of mine lmao