Hey everyone. This is my (28M) first post here and I thought it was the best place to share the following story. Like others many others on this app, I use Reddit to satisfy some of my sexual needs. I’ve met a few people on here but a few months ago, I crossed paths with someone (26F) who I formed a deep emotional and sexual connection with.

We are both married, and in complex circumstances (aren’t we all). The first few days were absolutely magical. Before I met her, I was struggling a lot with my current situation and just life in general. Everyday felt the same, weeks and months just blending into one. I felt like she brought color back into my life. Because of our circumstances, we both used each other as an escape. We quickly caught feelings and fell deeply.

The sexual chemistry was also on point. We were both just as kinky as each other (I was her dom), and would have loads of intense phone and video sex sessions. We helped each other explore our kinks, and the dynamic was amazing. Not gonna get into the specifics of it lol, but she loved being a good girl for me. We fed into each others sex drive and since we were long distance, it just made the longing worse. We were planning to meet up and finally get our hands on each other.

Things got more intense as the weeks rolled by. She let me buy her things and take care of her. I felt the happiest I’ve been in years. We even started talking about a potential future together. We wanted to be there for each other and stick around until things changed. It’s at this point I believe I was in too deep. One could say I invested too much of my emotions into our relationship? Sure enough though, things had to end. We’re both Christian (she’s much more religious than I), and she felt a lot of guilt spiritually and wanted to fix things in her marriage. She ended it and it broke me. We still talked throughout the breakup and are now friends.

It took several weeks to process and I am still healing. I would be lying if I say I didn’t think about her. I do most of the time, I’ve just healed in a way that I can think of her without feeling a nauseating pit in my chest. I’ve let a lot go, and some days are easy. But today is especially hard. I miss her. I miss what we had. I’m working hard to better myself and my marriage but things don’t feel the same. I’ve started taking meds and will go to therapy soon, so hopefully things start to improve. I still think about what we would’ve done with each other in that planned meet up. It’s insanity to feel this way for someone so far away. I’ve started to talk to other people as well to try and fill the void and move on. Fingers crossed everything works out the way it’s supposed to..

Anyway, just thought I’d share this in hopes some of you can relate to it. Thanks for reading!