I apologize for the incoming ramble.

I spend all my time lost in my own little world, always distracted by daydreaming.

I want to draw, but I never actually do. On the rare occasions that I motivate myself to start, I last about 10 minutes before giving up.

I want to do it, to get my ideas out of my head, but I can't. It all feels so insurmountable.

I never finish anything.

I've started 6-7 tabletop games, but they all end after two or three sessions because I get bored, or can't focus on coming up with things for my players to do because I've lost all interest in running them, or because I have too many players and I can't keep track of them.

I want a hobby, or a passion. I want to feel motivated to do things, but I'm incapable of enjoying things.

I never feel a sense of accomplishment. At best, I feel relieved when I don't have anything to do, because it means that the stress is gone.

I don't think I've ever felt satisfied by a "job well done".

I'm also incapable of saving money. I order food a lot because I can't motivate myself to cook; and I'd go without eating instead.

I procrastinate constantly, and can't get anything done in a timely manner either.

How do you cope with this? Does anyone have suggestions or tips?

I should probably find a therapist or someone who specializes in ADHD. Maybe I could get a diagnosis and help from a professional.