Hi ladies,

I’ve a had a long work day and just want to curl in a ball and hibernate. As my title states, I work remotely for a small market research consultant (just my boss and another employee and I). Working in a small company means there’s barely any work structure, protocols, and support. Our schedule depends on our clients....some weeks I’m up until 11pm interviewing people on the west coast, and some days I’m working until 10pm to make sure we get a report done on time.

My boss is a workaholic and piles on projects without having a project management system in place, so I perpetually feel overwhelmed by multiple projects happening at once. My boss also expects us to finish things quickly when we don’t have the formal training or education.

I feel like I’m drowning in a sea of tasks, deadlines, and reports. It’s also triggering when she gives feedback bc she can be really blunt and harsh with her language and tone, it makes me feel incompetent and helpless.

It’s also so fucking hard to create stability when my boss barely has time to spare and she’s been operating in a disorganized way for decades.

Before I got treated for ADHD, I thought I was going to get fired. Now that I’m more ‘productive’ I have more responsibilities (e.g. administrative and management duties) on top of my existing work as a research analyst.

She’s a caring boss and tries her best for us, but her work style and way of managing her business makes me so burnt out and unhappy.

Sorry for the depressing post. I’m just tired of being a cog in the machine... I hate structure but I need it, I want to at least have me time. :(